There it goes...

For September 7

         Just this week, I felt anger not just to a certain person but also to myself. Well actually, it was anger and fear. It all started when I asked him questions, to be exact, the question was something about a picture of a girl in his phone. Actually, there were two solo pictures there but I know there were other picture of his friends but the two really remained in his phone. I knew the girl, she was his friend. So I asked him but I didn’t get the answer I was looking for. Yeah, I was jealous like who on earth won’t if that will be the case right? Yet he acted so numb. He kept on asking me if why am I cold to him and he said the picture was nothing. I became angry to him because why can’t he feel the way I’m feeling? I came to realize that all boys are really like that, they are all numb and cheaters!!! But I also realized that I am also scared of losing him. So, one night he came to my place and I was hoping that we could talk because even though I’m mad at him, I still want to compromise because his birthday is fast approaching. It turned out the other way around. He was still so insensitive, like I was crying in front of him and he was asking if why I am crying. He didn’t even said sorry. Worst, he left me. He said he should go home. That’s the time where I really cried so hard. My heart broke. I even came to the point of breaking up with him. That night I received three long texts messages from him. He explained his side but I’m still hurt of what he did to me. I am also angry with myself because I was/am stupid. I easily cry and I can’t easily stop myself from crying.

       To make it short, I accepted his apology. Scarlet helped him and made him realize his mistakes. It was in our office when we talked about it and surprisingly he cried. I was shocked because he really cried in front of me. He said that it was really nothing, and I have nothing to be afraid of. 

      Anger is good to let your emotions out and for the other person know what you truly feel. But again, too much of everything will bring no good. If you hold too much anger within yourself, you will lose the persons who loves you and worst, you will lose yourself.